Blah-blah-blah……. (better wrote before my head blows!!)

oh yeah…. another blah-blah in english. I knew… my english is only 1 level higher than crap, of course mine is not crap!! hahaha!! well, i’m not gonna change my whole post into english…. no way!! Even in bahasa Indo, i felt so lazy to write something….than i need to kill myself to write every post in english!! So… why do i need to write in english? Not because i need to show off…. (of course i’m no…t!!) i just feel it better to write in english, as this thing i wrote is about SARA. well, it is sensitife things… and felt a bit rude to write in bahasa Indonesia….. Anyway…u may think i’m over sensitive….but in the end, this is my blog, i can do whatever i want to!! huahahhahaha!!! *the mask rider pose, please*

I read some news about Afghanistan refugees, a few days ago…. It is not the first case happened in Indonesia, mostly the east part of Indo. A lot of Afghanistan illegal immigrant sailing through indo ocean, to reach OZ. Of course…. indo is not their final destination!! Indo is well known as the crossroad for Afghan refugees.  It reminds me a lot to those boat people of Vietnam during the Vietnam civil war 1975-1979. They sailed (i think, going with the stream would be a better description) in a small boat, some of the boat even leaked!! It sounds like they packed a little boat with around 100 people, man and women, kids, babies….. They all escaped from their countries, cos they’re afraid of war, or… for the Afghan people, i might say they’re tired of war.

Meanwhile…. lots of Indo people become refugees in some country, such as Canada. Lot of Indo people seek for asylum in several embassies in Malaysia. Lots of Acehnese became illegal refugees in Malaysia, only some of them seek for asylum…. In late 1998, a lot of Indo people seek for asylum in Singapore and Malaysia… Yesterday, i have a long chat with my ex-univ mate, he is in New Jersey now. He have been in USA for more than 3 years, and he is trying to apply green card now. let us call him Mate,  Mate is not a refugee, he use student visa.  He told me that he is married to Indo but USA citizen recently. Before i explain further, i have guess that this girl would be a refugee, and i was damn right. Mate told me that his wife have been in USA more than 10 years… she and her family must be run out  of Indo at 1998.  Not surprising at all! I remember, the  honda jazz car in Taman Anggrek apartment parking lot, it have covered with thick dust. very thick, so u can write things with ur finger there, and that was what people have done with that Honda jazz, and no one even bother to wipe it, time will wipe it anyway…… It looks  like no one move it for ages…. Words spreads, that the owner have run out of Indo at 1998, leaving anything behind……

I think i was damn innocent….i was never imagine that there will be a lot of Indo refugee out there, till somewhere around 2006 i met some of them, and it have open my new horizon!!  That old man, i met in cooking class, he and his family is Canada citizen. They were seeking asylum in Canada Embassy from Singapore, on 1998. Now, after become Canada citizen, he come to visit Indo sometimes. I think, some of his relatives still in Indo…..and i think, he love indo environment, no matter what….

May 1998 was a tragic,  yet mystic moment, for Indo people….not all actually… it is more to chinese overseas In Indo, In jakarta, to be specific…..  Tragic cos it makes a lot of damage…. killed many people….. makes a lot of Indo become refugee abroad…. But mystic…cos u can’t never understand what have happened.  None of those Indo refugee i know, ever told me what happened to them…. The story about May 1998 In jakarta sounds like an urban legend…. U can see the left-over destruction there….but u can’t barely know what have happened. U can hear people telling a story about many chinese indo being raped at that moment, but u can’t find the victim…no one come to testify. That’s why, somesay that it was only mass robbery, cos many people are hungry, and hungry people is angry people. Nothing more than that. No chinese hatred…..

I was in Surabaya at that time. On 1998 i was in my first year univ. (oh my god!!!!! i’m that old!!!) Surabaya is relative silent…. But, have u ever think, how it feels to be in a univ building, been told to to run on some certain spots inside the unive, just in case people cam attacking during the class….  In some spots, u can find sticks to defend urself  (i saw that sticks in martial art demonstration, when i was on my first day in univ)  My univ in Surabaya is located in a dense middle to low housings. Pretty strong muslim spot….and my univ is Christian Univ. Don’t even ask why that univ built their kingdom there! Accidentally, this univ is full of chinese overseas student, and a lot of christian people from the east part of Indonesia, such as Kalimantan, Sulawesi,  Ambon, Papua, Mataram, ect.  When the Sampit-Madura incident happened, i barely felt my Sampit/Dayak (kalimantan) mates got very nervous…..

So…..what have my ancestor done wrong?? So it looks like, everything happened to this country, the chinese overseas would be the first target?? Even in 1998, it was a big politics chaos, and honestly, before Gus Dur Era, there are soooo less chinese doing politics!! Anyway…. Chinese were banned for politics activity after the PKI (Indo Communist party) did the so called coup… Oh yeah, lately people, including Indo historians doubted that coup incident…. So, why do they attack chinese overseas property on May 1998? I think the one should be blame for our economic collapse is Soeharto and his gank (OK, and his government) cos he make a lot of debt, so we can sell out the whole indo including its citizen, and the debt still un paid!! For me, it looks like i got itchy on my eyes, and i  stab my arm to heal the itchy??  We don’t do politics, but we have to pay the price… what an unfair things. Now, the 1998  mass riot in jakarta never be revealed…..cos…. what else? POLITICS.

some historian said that hatred towards chinese overseas start from the colonized era. And it was set up by the colonialist (Ducth) They didn’t want Indo people become one strong power, cos it would be bad for their ass. So, they kept Indo in separate groups, the Dutch treat each groups differently.  So, just like a kids who jealous to their younger brother, cos they felt that their mother treat them differently….. The native Indo who was set (by Dutch) in the lowest level, always jealous to chinese overseas. And u know…… being a very opportunist is writen on our DNA, as a chinese!! We enjoy this set up, spoiled i may say, and instead of start thinking about this un fair practice by Dutch, we let it happened… I rememeber Douwes Dekker a.k.a Multatuli, he is a Dutch guy, came to Indo, and saw how his government treat Indo native, and he fel soooo damn bad about it, so he wrote a novel Max Havelaar to critize the situation….. What a humanist person…..

So, the colonized era was over for ages….. but the hatred still here…. Actually, the colonialist was Caucasian (Dutch), but….why is the hatred now is toward chinese overseas? Contrary to the situation, we treat the caucasian like a savior! We treat Caucasian like some kind of race above us, Asian!! I don’t want us to treat caucasian as desease, and need to b demolished!! Com’on!! I’m not those shallow-extremist-who thinks that God will blessed them for killing others!!! But, at least we can be more humanist… treat human as human, no matter what race they are…….

I wish I can be more humanist…..